You know it's bad when........

I done something yesterday that I thought I would never have to do. To some it may not sound like something so bad but to me it was a low point(that later turned into a somewhat high point).

I had to take our money jar(change) to the bank to get cash because were are literally broke. We have less than $20 in the bank. DH gets paid this friday and already that money is gone before it even gets here. But after I turned in all my change I got back $124!!!!!!!!!!!! I was only expecting like maybe $50 at the most. Holy cow I was suprised!!!!!!

So anyway, we will take some of that money and buy some much needed groceries, some of it and hide it, and the rest we will use for spending cash.


Something has been weighing heavy on my mind alot here the last few days. I have been thinking about if only I had a job. Why don't I just go get one you ask? Well, I have no babysitter for my 4 yr old. I can't find a job around here that would pay for daycare plus put money in the bank for groceries. So I guess I am just screwed!!! Ugh!!!!

Lazy Saturday morning......

Well, this is going to be a lazy dreary saturday. It is misting rain outside, DH is working, I am not in the mood to do much of anything today. I will probably do a few loads of laundry, read some more on my book, upload more songs to my iphone and that just might be it today.

Things have gotten better around here. Dh's side work is starting to pick up(praise GOD!!!). Some of the work will pay him pretty quick but some of it is going to take anywhere from 30 -90 days because it is oil field work. We both have been in a better mood, but not like we used to be. But who is anymore? Especially with the economy the way it is.

Oh well, I just am thankful that we are in better shape than others. I think we have both learned our lessons about spending money and having credit cards.

Now off to do a little bit of nothing today!!! LOL ;)

Having a bad day.......

I honestly don't know where to start. Things around here have been getting worse and worse. Financially(the major thing), fighting with the DH(as a result of the financial part), extended family fighting, I could go on forever. I just don't feel like dealing with any of it. Financially we are about to go under and DH wants me to go get a job but honestly I think it is too late for that. I would have to work after 5 pm because he doesn't get home from work until around 4:15-4:30 and then that would mean I would have to high-tail it to the nearest town to be able to make it there by 5. I am excited about the fact that I need to go get a job. Sounds weird huh? well I am ready to get out of the house for a purpose other than grocery shopping. But the thing is where to find a job that I can work nights at? Wal-Mart, the hospital, or a gas station is about my only choices. I have been looking for over 5 yrs now (off and on) to find a job that I can do at home. Most of them want a fee to get started and I have heard that I shouldn't have to pay to get a job. So I don't know what is legit and what isn't. I have thought about going back to school but guess what that costs money! We can barely buy groceries much less pay for me to go to school.

The fighting with DH has been getting worse. I have been feeling the tension getting worse and then Sunday night it all just fell apart. We had our youngest's birthday party Sunday afternoon and I had done some laundry earlier that afternoon and just piled it on the bed. Well, the bedroom is DH's throne. He lays/sits in bed and watches his tv shows. I didn't have time to fold and put up the clothes when everyone started showing up for the party so I just threw them on the bed and closed the door. Well, after everyone left, he went in to his "throne" and started throwing a fit because there were clothes on the bed and he couldn't even lay down. I told him(nicely), why couldn't he just scoot them over to the other side of the bed and I would put them up after I got the cake and ice cream put up from the party. He told me that I was one lazy woman and that I never finish anything I start and that I needed to get my act together. Which is partially true. I have been pretty lazy here lately and not been keeping the house clean, laundry done up and a hot meal everynight. I am going to be working on this. My attitude here lately hasn't been the greatest either so I am working on it too. So anyway, that ended up being a huge fight. We kinda got it straightened out but not all the way.

You know the old saying....... God never gives you more than you can handle? Well, I think I am about to my breaking point. I have been praying, probably not as much as I should, but at least I am doing it. It just seems like it is falling on deaf ears. I am going to try to start reading and studying my Bible more and trying to have more faith.

Been a while......

Howdy! I know it has been a while since I have posted. I got out of the habit and haven't gotten back in yet. I have made it a resolution to try to blog more and maybe this will help me get some things off my chest that I can't talk to anyone else about it. Here I can type anything that is on my mind and no one really cares. This will be just a place for me to get things out there. No one in my family that I know of reads this so this blog is my only haven to which I can lay my heart out on my sleeve.

I said the word resolution above and I don't usually do resolutions because they are just like everyone elses. Lose weight and get debt under control. But this year is different. I am going to state a few and then try my hardest to stick to them.

Here goes...........

• try to lose 5 pounds a month
  
• try to save money up for an emergency (or vacation, which to me is one in the same)
• read and study the Bible everyday
• not be infront of the computer so much
• try to blog atleast every other day
  

So there it is. What do you think is it do-able?