Lots of things on my mind today!

My mind is just racing with thoughts about everything from how much I need to clean my house to wondering if DH will still have a job by the end of the day to how we are going to survive even if he does get to keep his job to praying to God that he will help us thru this.

I am looking thru my house to see what I can sell. I have clothes that are too small for me that I am thinking of selling. I am trying to put things in priority so if we have to start shutting things off. Internet will be the first to go. We can/will survive without it. We just went grocery shopping yesterday so we have groceries for atleast 2 more weeks if not longer just depending on how much I can stretch things.

I need to clean my house, but just can't get motivated enough to do it. Laundry needs done, dishes washed, vaccum run, and the list could go on and on. Just everyday things that need to be done that haven't been done since last Friday when DH got word that he could possibly lose his job. I feel too stressed to get things done.

One thing I have been doing is lurking around ETSY. Man, is there some awesome sellers on there!!!! Just head over to Etsy.com and do a search for tags with Cafemom team in them. Awesome people listed under that name. I would be sooooooo dangerous if I had money. LOL

Really stressed right now!!

So yeah, I am really stressed right now. Dh's hours are getting cut and it looks like I am going to have to start looking for a job. I soooooo don't want to. I know we need the money but I don't want to go find a job, for a few reasons.
1. youngest daughter would have to go to a daycare
2. or I would have to find a night shift somewhere
3. No one would hire a mom that hasn't worked for 5 yrs
4. I don't have any "skills" that would get me a higher paying job I would have to work in a gas station or the mall.

So I am looking for a job that I could do at home. I am also thinking of going to the local vo-tech to get some type of training in something. I spend so much time on the internet so I was thinking web page design.

If someone handed me a blank check and said it was to pay for any type of education that I wanted, I don't know what I would do. I honestly don't know what I would like to become. It seems like I have been a mommy for so long that I don't know what else I want to do. I guess I am trying to say that I have no idea what my "calling" is. I get to thinking about it and get to feeling SO lost. Dont' get me wrong I LOVE being a mom but what else would I like to be or do. I have had 5 wonderful years to be able to stay at home and take care of my kids but now that it is time for me to start thinking about a job I am scared to death. No one will want to hire a mom that hasn't worked in over 5 yrs.

God please give me guidance!!!!

So it has been a while since I last posted. not much going on around here that ya'll would want to know about. MIL is being a B!#$%. She has now been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. She is living by herself and is attaching herself to my DH like he is her DH. Drives me crazy. She gets mad at him if he doesn't come see her just as soon as he comes home. All she does when anyone talks to her is talk bad about someone else. She is as two faced as she has ever been but here lately it is getting really bad.

Anyway, How was everyones valentines day? mine was good. Friday nite DH come home with a dozen yellow roses, 2 bags of M&M's(plain and peanut), a bag of candy for the kids and a teddy bear for each of the kids. Isn't he sweet? Saturday nite I fixed him his favorite supper...... Chicken fried steak, mashed tators, gravy, corn, and a salad. He and I loved it but the girls only liked the mashed tators and gravy and the salad. They did eat a little of their meat but only after I told them no candy until they ate atleast some of their meat. LOL

I am pms'ing so bad right now that I could snap off someones head if they do the wrong thing. Okay maybe not that bad but I am not in a good mood right now. I want to sew but I know that if I get out my sewing stuff I would probably end up throwing machine and all in the trash because I don't have the patience right now to handle any mess ups. So today sounds like a good day to be lazy and not do anything.

tata for now!!!

Just had to share!

I know this may not mean alot to some of you but to me it does. My daughter hardly ever lets me try new things in her hair and she finally did and this is what I did. I found this hair do over at Jackie & Kassies Sweet Hairdo's. She has some awesome ideas! Go check her out!

This one is called Side Part Piggies.